i'm so freaking bored now.. had tuition yesterday.. felt so awkward after skipping two weeks of tuition.. then in the afternoon went to the new national lib opp parco.. cause my parents had to go to the hospital to see an uncle who had a heart attack.. so they dropped my sis and i at the lib first.. super sian la there.. my sis kept walking ard.. so i sat there and actually managed to finish my compre.. haha.. anw i really have to thank my amaths tuition teacher and mr lee moh choon for helping me so much!! gave my tuition teacher her super late teachers' day gift yesterday.. it was a key chain.. quite special.. had her name on it.. 'ONG TAI'.. haha glad she liked it.. don't know why we always calls her ong tai also..but anw she's a very nice teacher la.. although she always 'suan's me.. haha.. and she always calls me for extra lessons free of charge.. like for example after sch.. when i receive her sms to go to her hse.. i'll just go no matter what.. even if i was like "wah sian.. want to go home alr still have to go for tuition". anw her place is just opp the mrt station near our sch.. i really wonder if without tuition, i would be self-disciplined and practise questions on my own.. maybe im not the sort who would? that particular afternoon would be spent slacking instead..

anw i think i've let my parents down.. cause i failed my phy? and my mum pays for my tuition fees for phy.. i studied.. but still failed.. what's wrong with me and my sciences.. i remember in pri sch.. my science always get band 2 or 3.. never managed to get band one for science!!.. so is it because i'm not those sort of scientifically inclined person(if there's such a phrase) or i simply did not study enough.. hai but i really tried to study phy this time round.. even did quite well for the trial exam that my tuition teacher gave us.. but why do i always fail the school papers?! for chemistry.. i guess it was my fault cause i had no time and only read the textbook? at least our chemistry teacher miss ong is willing to go all out for us.. so i have not given up on chemistry.... but i really don't know how i should go about studying for my phy..

oh and it seems like many are going to poly? really cannot imagine myself in poly.. looks like no matter what i must get into a jc.. even if it means SR? i don't like it but who knows? anw it's just opp my hse.. haha.. so hope they moderate more.. then more ppl can get into jc.. sigh i think my results are "terrible+horible"? we should really be in the "19th layer of H.E.L.L"...(suddenly all of mr lee's quotes are appearing in my mind alr). mr lee (mc) said that many teachers are not really keen on moderating. and miss tan said that there will be no moderation? hai then what's the use of setting some of the papers to such a high standard?! i don't understand what SOME OF the teachers are thinking. out to fail us or what?